[LIVING TEXT / LEVENDE TEKST]
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over religie [fragment, FATAMORGANA—gata]
It is often said that to be clinging to oneself is like having a thorn in the skin, and that Buddhism is a second thorn to extract the first. When it is out, both thorns are thrown away. But in the moment when Buddhism, when philosophy, or religion, becomes another way of clinging to oneself […]
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over de kosmische glijbaan en het vallen van mijn ouders [fragment, FATAMORGANA—gata]
Als kind droomde ik vaak over een soort kosmische glijbaan waar ik vanaf gleed die enorm van omvang was, en waarvan het begin en einde nooit tegelijk zichtbaar waren. Soms vond ik mijzelf al glijdende ergens op die gigantische baan, en was ik samen met mijn ouders die ieder op hun eigen baan naast mij […]
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LARY LOOKS FOR A JOB [fragment: THE BOOK OF LARY]
they asked Larry if he had any experience workingoh yes, Larry saidmany odd jobs here and therebut mostly thereflipping burgers, cleaning toiletsLarry was a lawyer once for the duration of one casedefending himself in courtwhere he was charged with murderLarry’s defence consisted only of his explanationas to why he had committed the murdertelling the judge […]
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HET ATELIER & THEEHUIS
ik zag altijd een toekomst voor me waarin jij mij als oud vrouwtje zou bezoekenen dat ik dan goede thee voor je zou zetten, bij mij thuis ofin de fantasie van mijn eigen atelier & theehuis, waar ik vol overgave bezig ben metalleen nog maar simpele vreugdes; ik schrijf dingen op en ik maak sculpturen; […]
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SONG ABOUT LARY 5 [fragment: THE BOOK OF LARY]
Larry once got buried under all his own insecuritieshe delicately tried to balance life and all it’s delicacies this life was always somewhat impracticalLarry was hopeless bearing all of these emotionsLarry always knew about but never understood the paradox of himselfLarry decided he wanted to pass a mountaininstead of climbing it, or going around ithe […]
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LARRY’S BIRTH [fragment: THE BOOK OF LARY]
In the beginning there was nothingand then there was Larryborn out of nothingspat out by pitch black like some unwanted residue he was there and Larry knewinstinctivelythat he was Larry
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[fragment: SADBOY]
SADBOY lays upon a operation table, CROWBOY looms above him with many long and thin but strong-looking spidery arms reaching from under his two black wings. In one of them he holds a scalpel knife. ‘It’s time we have a look inside of you. What you won’t tell me you can’t hide inside of you, […]
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LARRY’S BAPTISM [fragment: THE BOOK OF LARY]
a cut was made through flesh, arteries drainedLarry bathed himselftiny red rivers stream down from his facecovering his body all the way down to his feeta sacrifice madea promise of devotion [a feverish faithfulness]Larry gave himself to it with abandon [to life with a thunderous passion] through death he becameand through life he will be […]
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LARY’S SONG 9 [fragment: THE BOOK OF LARY]
I despise most of my own poetryhave no idea what all these words are supposed to besome far away melody, melancholyI’m vomiting, can you hear it?are you listening?fears following thoughtsfools chasing dragonssee my substance dependencyswallowing dubious amounts of everything I can getlet me be me – I want all of itfeelings consisting of something don’t […]
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[fragment: KINTSUGI POLTERGEIST]
Op vrijdag de dertiende oktober 1307 begonnen de vervolgingen van de tempeliers in Frankrijk. De gevangenen kregen meestal niet meer dan water en brood om van te leven. In donkere kerkers likten de vlammen aan de in olie gedoopte voeten van jammerende pelgrimsridders; handen werden achter de rug samengebonden en met een wipgalg werden de […]